You know, weight can be a life or death matter for a girl.
I gained some weight lately and it makes me upset every time i look at the mirror.
Being very honest, i know i'm lucky enough to born naturally thin but girls will never feel enough for their body shape. I'm not sure whether it's the media effect or it's just part of the woman's nature. But things like this can upset me.
Too much of Macdonaldsssssss?
Also, i feel kinda unhealthy lately. My body is giving me lots of warning signal and they are like groaning in pain. I feel like an old lady when i'm walking on stairs and i get tired really fast.Pretty sure most of the girls feel that way too. So I should do something before it's too late.
Eat like the pizza;)
MY PLAN IS EAT LOTS OF FRUITS & EXERCISE REGULARLY!!!
The thing is i'm not a very discipline person and that make most of my diet plan failed.
I was once a chubby girl. So it terrifies me when i gained weight. However, i can also lose weight easily. How? I have very weak body and i get sick quite often. Mc once a month is inevitable. Don't get me wrong coz nobody would like to fall sick just to lose weight.
But this time, i hope i can lose weight in a healthy way. I'M SICK OF GETTING SICK!! So instead of cut off the diet, i choose to maintain a healthy diet.
"Obesity starts when you stop mind about your body image. " I always remind myself that.
i just did a flash mob with my colleagues this morning. It was quite an interesting experience since i never seen or do any flash mob before. So we have some fun time singing Raya Song-" Suasana Hari Raya" in the LRT at KL sentral station. Response of passengers is not that happening like we thought and you know Malaysians are always passive with unfamiliar things. We called it as MALAYSIAN CULTURE- Passive from the outside, burning from the inside.lol..
Or probably because it wasn't well planned enough. We are lack of singers and that's why the effect isn't huge.
Anyway, i think it was a good try. Surprisingly they said i can sing WELL and offer me to be the lead singer. Well i agreed, but ended up i sang the wrong key coz IT WAS TOO SPONTANEOUS! I NEED MORE PRACTICE!! (i'm not giving excue=p) Again, it was a good try anyway. haha..
Oh ya, there will be some shocking photos of me and my friends wearing Baju Kurung & Baju Melayu coming up soon. So Stay tune.
I have seen fake faces, selfish and ignorant people.
Sad to say that, we are just human and we are not perfect.
I have to admit that i'm not a very strong girl after all.
Instead, i think i'm pretty weak internally.
Sometimes you just get disappointed with many many things in life and giving up seems so much easier. You might be thinking: Why i wanna make my life so miserable? Isn't it easier without all the unrealistic/super ambitious dream?
It has been some time i never blog, but i just want to share with you guys how i went through my internship.i hope it helps if you are having tough time like me=)
Working as an intern is definitely not easy at all. I still remember how harsh my Boss treated us with hurtful words like:
-Interns deserve no rest. you wanna rest? rest after 3months. Then you can have all the time you want.
-You sucks, admit it! it's ok, just don't suck too long.
-You dont like it, Get out of my office!
-The world won't stop because you are on mc or someone in your family pass away.
We work long long....hours per day. It's like you will never see the sun.
During production time, working for 20++ hours is inevitable.And you got to find ways to cope with that because you are not allow to fall sick. That moment is tough. Your pride is challenged, your dream is crushed, your passion faded and at the end of the day,
you will start questioning yourself, am i doing the right thing? Is this what i wanna do for my entire life?
Working long hours, sacrifice your social life and with all those unbearable stress?
Then I compare myself with other frens who do internship at other places. They are doing great!
They are happy, their Boss are good to them, they have more benefits, they have higher income.
i was like LIFE IS NOT FAIR!
Why they get all the good things?
i begin to complain, blame and angry with everything around me.
i wonder why God want to put me in such a bad situation where i don't see any point working in a company that i cant learn much.(That's what i think in the beginning)
But it's ok.Things will get easier and easier as we survive, i told myself.
My Boss challenged me in many many ways, well not to mention for those heavy workloads and mission impossible. Until one day my Boss switch me to another department that do team building business. The team building leader told me, it's going to very tough and tiring. i was like oh no... Surprisingly, i found it piece of cake compare to what i did in production department. I am able to work longer hours compare to my colleague. And i come to realize, when you have been through the worst, next time the challenge come, it doesn't bother me anymore.
Currently i almost finish my internship and my Boss turn out to be quite ok lately. He offered us a project and our internship assessment is going to base on that. He warn us that, if we did it badly, he will fail us all. So make sure it is an "A" project. It's either "F" or "A", no B, C, D,E..
We were under lots of pressure that time.
Until........tatang~~~ this is our final product, and of course it is an A product ;)
So enjoy it, and ready to burst in laughter coz it is an comedy.
So what i'm trying to say is, it is very hard to hang on to things that you think is unreasonable. But be patient and faithful, juz tell yourself, juz a little while, a little more, yea... almost~~~
Then 1 week pass, 2 weeks pass and without your realization, things gets better and you are able to adapt already. So frens, gambateh!^^
Probably i have too many things bugging me lately,
work, assignments, exam, church, family, and friends,
Thank God i'm still doing fine so far.
I was in the hospital for 3 days last week.
These 3 days make me know that how pampered i am in the family and among my friends.
All the people shows their concern in many ways, they text me, fb me, visit me, call me...
Thank God that he send so many beautiful people around me to make me feel secure and warm when i need them.
I really really wanna tell them how thankful i am to hv them by my side.
Thank you so so much!
Of course, i wanna thank my soul mate for staying with me in the hospital for three days.
Its really tiring for him to handle the assignment, work while taking care of me.
I know that you are a man of action. Many times, you might not pleasure me with words, but you always shows up when i need you the most. All these are 100times more genuine than any sweet talks. Thank you=)
