得空的后果=误思乱想

昨天终于

得空了休息了！

结果列，有事没事都淋“餐”饱！

都唔知淋么？

我看我十成是太忙了，所以一得空就想东想西的。

哎。。。

盈莹！！！别再想啦！！！！！

振作点！

是新年阿！新年要开心^^

Happy Chinese new year^^

Finally........ my shooting has come to the end.

Really thank God for giving me strength n courage to keep me motivated.

Oso i hv to thank my fellow teammates for performing their efficiency and profession throughout the shooting.

Last but not least to thank our frens who are willing to offer help as volunteer.

You guys are AWESOME!!!!Wuhoo~~~

Hu~~ chinese new year is coming...

Assignments due date is reaching as well.

Somehow it's a gud thing to keep me busy as well.

Since my new year is juz here, rawang but no where else.haha..

And i hv no money to go out as well. T.T

Argh!!!!! money money come~~~~ pls~~~

Only you know me the best

Frens...

Family...

study.....

work.....

church....

So many things happen lately,

Problems comes one after another,

There's never ending challenges in my life.

i'm almost at the verge of breaking down,

physically and mentally.

My life is like roller coaster everyday.

I'm not surprise one day i will die of car accident, heart attack, or over stress.

Recently,

My life has fell into a pattern,

It's like a working machine.

APART from work,

still it's work.

Of course i do hv emotions,

Somehow i dun hv much time to even feel sad or angry abt something.

I'm juz doing my part.

i tell myself,

No matter how hard it is, this is to glorify your name Lord.

It's usual that

People often has different perception

but we cant favor everyone,

somehow we have to stand strong and be honest with our feelings

I did try my very best to talk things out,

I hv did my part father,

the rest is up to you.

After so many things happen in life,

i barely trust in anyone,

and barely believes that there's someone who i can trust or understand me.

Ppl fails you,

but God will never.

He know me the best^^

我相信！

最近不如意事一连串接着来。

eq少一点都不行，幸好还把持的住！嘻嘻。。

人生嘛，

有时候真的很矛盾，很多事情都不在你控制范围当中。

尤其是，人与人之间的关系。

最近看到了人性的阴险，

也看到了虚假的面孔，

真的很恐怖。

让你分不出哪个才是真心的，哪个是虚假的。

还会有真心吗？

我开始不敢相信了。

此刻，我真的无法再相信任何人了。

不想去猜测面具背后是真心还是一个有一个的谎言。

我一直都认为，这个世界是美丽的。

每个人都有善良的心。

每个谎言都是善意的。

每个错误都是无心的。

看来，也是时候改变我的想法了。

人生不是童话故事。

社会是阴险的。

不过。。。。。。。

不管怎样，

我相信总有一天，

我会找到真心朋友的，我会找到真心伴侣的！

只因为我相信！

love your neighbors...

我很好欺负是吗？

为什么全世界都在欺负我？

虚情假意的，自以为是的，情绪化的，当我是超人的，

通通以自己为中心，自私！

每个人都有自己的烦恼，不要总是以为自己最可怜，最了不起，最伤心。。。

人生不该只是想自己，要想想别人。

想想别人为你做的，不是老是想着你为别人做了什么。

想想没爸妈的孤儿，不是老是想着自己失恋很不开心。

想想别人要的是什么，不是老是在想自己要什么！

这个世界需要的是-爱!

Fruitful day!!!

Happy Thaipusam!!!!!

wuhoo!!!!

What a nice and delightful holiday to spend with family.

So how's ur holiday ya?

New year is coming and my 21th birthday as well...hohoho...

I'm pretty sure many of you went shopping for clothes and groceries,

make sure you look good and eat well during this prosperous festival.

For the previous years,

my birthday is always the day that people busy for new year preparation, holiday, or even one day b4 new year.

Sad to say i always being ignore.

and I hv been longing for a huge birthday party ever since i was young.

However, i didn't plan to hv one for my 21th birthday.

Somehow party is not that matters anymore.

Probably because i was too much to work on lately or i'm aging? outdated?

haha...i hv no idea.

But i do wish to hv a small celebration with my frens and family.

I wanna hv a memorable one.

For me, relationship is above all things else.

I wanna spend my 21th with people that i love and with GOD^^

it's the first year of birthday after converted.

Jesus said as we accept Christ, we are new born.

In reality, this is my 21th birthday.

In god's kingdom, i'm only one years old!hahah...how cool huh?

i hv alot going on lately,

thank God for rejoicing me, restoring power in me, and kept me motivated all the time.

I believe you will blessed me with a super duper memorable birthday!!!

AMEN!!!!

开心是生活必需品！！！

最近生活紧张，心情低落，思维凌乱，生活枯燥，失眠，疲劳，头痛，

整个人就快崩溃了！唉。。。

明天是thaipusam，终于有时间休息下了。

盈莹，你要多疼自己啊！

不要老是工作，有时候也要放松心情，灵感自然会来咯！

很快就要二十一岁了，不能哭着脸过哦！

今年一定要笑着跟家人朋友过！

虽然我不打算大事庆祝一番，可是我知道大家都记得我的生日。嘻嘻。。

这样，我就已经很满足了！！

是的，我不能再emo下去了！

我要把不开心的东西抛掉，重新出发！！！！！

加油哦！

First day

hmm...First day of new sem today.

I feel completely different.

shameful to say that i feel excited like a primary school kid,

Trying hard to hide my excitement and insecurity behind my smiling face.hehe...

Maybe it's the sem that i'm single after all these while?

It's better than i thought actually,

I used to read and listen to songs in university.

Instead of walking around n chit-chatting wit frens,

i enjoy having some alone moment reading book and dwell in the melodious music from my ear phone.

It's peaceful.

Well, maybe it looks kinda emo for some people.

I hv to agree with you guys as well,

but i do talk to my frens when i think i behave overly emo.LOL

i hv a great day with sports, book and traffic jam.

why is there no music?

Coz.... i dun hv any player with me now?

i used to listen songs in my phone but not until i change my phone to a touch screen phone.

The battery drys out pretty fast.

So i guess it's the time for me to buy a music player.

Guess what comes out from my mind?

MP3!!!

HAHAHA...

i know i'm ancient k?

i know as a youngster, i should think of ipod.

But why should i desire for something that i cant even afford it?

After all, i'm juz being realistic.

So...hmm....

i think i will buy an mp3 as my 21th birthday present for myself!

Cool?(pls say yes!)haha...

It's sunday^^

SUNDAY SUNDAY!

Today will be my day with books and bible with some peaceful songs.

After a conversation with Carmen last night.

I have answers in my heart.

I'm glad that it wasn't too late for me to know and repent.

I'm glad that because of my faithfulness, i found the answers from God.

It has been some time i draw away from God,

being emotional and blinded by the stressful things in life.

Being tired to serve God,

Being stubborn to hear God,

Being shameful to seek God.

Father God,

I'm sorry,

i wanna repent.

I believe as i repent, you will once again touches my life.

It's doesn't matter that people fails me,

It's doesn't matter that i'm not perfect,

No one is perfect,

I'm not being perfect to impress people,

I'm doing all these to my heavenly father.

And it shouldn't be tiring.

It shouldn't be a burden.

Coz father, you will never judge me,

You see my heart better than anyone else.

I should be proud to carry your name and made in the image of your holiness.

Father

Thank you for your salvation

Thank you for always be there for me

Thank you for sending wonderful people around me,

support me, back me up, encourage me

when i'm

broken down, shattered apart, and lost in direction.

I can never comprehend your love to me.

I love you Jesus.

Amen!

What happen?

hu~ juz back from my fren's 21t birthday party.

It's another tiring day and the next day is arising.

Will i be a better person tomolo?

i always wanted to be better, better and better.

Somehow i dun feel that i'm improving.

Instead, i'm doing worse i guess.

i need some breakthrough...

Looking at the book the book that Cheryl gave me,

The name of the book is Boy meets girl,

She said it's going to answer every single question in my heart.

i'm urge to read it tonight, since my heart is uneasy and my mind is in shut down mood.

Hope that this book can really help me.

New year=new challenges

Alright, it has been some time i never update my bloggie.

This should be my first post for year 2011.

Well i suppose it should be something encouraging and positive.

Too bad it is not.

Well, i'm not planning to write something positive just because it is new year.

Instead i will write thr truth of my life.

This is the purpose of blog, it's suppose to record our daily life,

Doesn't matter it's happy moment or sad moment,

And that makes our life beautiful. Am i right?^^

2010 indeed a blessing year,

it is the year that i found God.

God is a miracle god, everything is possible with faith.

i hv been through alot, grow a lot from zero to hero.

And i know i won't stop growing in 2011.

There will be more challenges to come, and more levels to conquer!

It has been few weeks in 2011, and i can see the challenges are coming.

It's even tougher than i can imagine.

I'm struggling in dilemma and confusion lately.

Seems so hard to get out of it.

Every time i think i'm over it, another problem strike.

Maybe this is what we call life.

Hope that i can learn and defeat them!