Independent girl

To be honest,

i'm definitely not an independent girl.

I wish i m, n i wish i could.

In a way physically n emotionally.

Most of the time,

i will doubt myself, and constantly asking myself, m i doing the right thing?

End up my doubt is the first wrong thing that i did.

May be that's why i found myself difficult to take up responsibilities.

Coz i dun even trust myself....

Seek first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added to you.

Juz have a good time worshiping God.

Thank you father for

your love, your healing, your calling.

Thank you for letting me to found you,

Thank you for always be there for me even though i walk on my way,

Thank you for everything that u did for me.

For u alone deserve all the glory and all the praise.

Hallelujah!

God is a healer.

It has been few days suffering from imbalance emotion,

Thank God i feel better today.

I begin to see the truth of everything,

begin to accept and believe that something better is waiting for me.

Truly grateful to hv such a wonderful godly family that always be there for me, support me, encourage me every time i hv any difficulties in life.

Corinthian 10:13

No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man;

but God is faithful,

who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able,

but with the temptation will also make the way of escape,

that you may be able to bear it.

If God let this to happen,

means he's sure that i can take it.

And i hv faith in him that he will heal me and renew me inside out.

Amen!

Everything falls apart

How irony to look at my previous post abt my happy couple life now.

Nothing changed

Can i blog abt something happy?

But nothing changed, Bad stuff everywhere.

I feel so terrible lately, under lots of pressure and something remain unsolved.

I hate comma, can i hv a fullstop?

Open ended make me hanging like a dry fish, thirst till half dead.

How i wish all these can come to an end.

But i know i would be so easy.

I hv to be stronger than this.

God bless me. Amen.

Weak flesh

I'm really stress and not in mood lately.

I try to calm myself and i thought i'm fine.

But the biological clock rings..

The feeling is back.

I used to drop 4kg for not having proper food within a month.

I start to lose appetite, food disgust me,

Everything that i ate will end up pilling out from body.

I cant stop purging and vomiting.

weight drops till 39kg.

That was nightmare.

Doc said i was too stress.

This disease almost got me barred for two subject.

I always worry abt my health.

i cant be stress.

recently i lost appetite again , my mouth taste bitter.

I barely eat juz taking milo everynight.

I know something is wrong

Pls dun sick, u useless flesh!

Mood theory 2

Okay, i admit i'm little bit over positive,

It seems fake n abnormal.

I admit, deep inside i'm not happy.

But there's nothing wrong making yourself positive right?

It works in that way.

It prevents you from breaking down,

Giving you strength to hold on something.

I would say it's 100%healthy!

But with one condition,

Sad abt it first then oni you find a way to make you happy.

You must admit that the problem exist but not faking to be happy and pretend that nothing really happens.

So, YES. i'm sad. But i'm ok.

Not pretending nothing happen, juz accept everything that comes.

So i learn to practice the "Life still goes on theory" instead of "i'm okay, i'm fine theory".

When no one one can "tam " us, then we "tam" ourselves lo.

It's not against the law girl, be proud and dun make yourself pathetic.=)

Mood theory

Life is full with ups and downs,
To be honest, these few days aren't good.
I try to keep the bad stuff out of my mind but things juz keeps coming one after another.
So what do i do to chill myself?
I watch How i met your mother? It's a sitcom, funny and positive.
This comedy is the best entertainment for me at this moment.

The other things i do to chill myself like going for macdonald ice-cream and online there but end up i'm not that happy with the air con and food prices.Ish~~

I would say that best solution to make girls happy is doing a facial while listening to your favourite music. Doesn't matter you are not a music man, everyone has their favourite one. Everyone has a song of their story. Juz relax and dwell in the sweetness of music, all your worries and frustration will be taken away=)

This video do cheer me up^^ enjoy~

Worry and frustration doesn't help in things, but a fresh mind and good mood can prepare you for more challenges. Lets' take some time pamper yourself, doing something that you like when you are not in a mood^^

Deepavali= Holidays!!!!wuhoo!!!

wow! Today is DEEpavali! what a great day!

I wish all my indian frens HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!

And the BREAKING NEWS OF TODAY WILL BE: NO TRAFFIC JAM IN RAWANG!

yes, ladies and gentleman you must be surprise that RAWANG roads can be so peaceful today. How come? Today is holiday! Everyone will be heading back to Ipoh, the roads should be jam. But later i realize what is the issue.hehe..... The answer is the Indian street.

This is because most of the indian frens closed their shops to celebrate this great festival and it reduces a lot of double parking, cars blocking, and reckless motorist on road. that's why Rawang ppl can enjoy the smooth journey today. I'm not saying that indian shops is the source of traffic problem, i'm saying that what bandar raya is doing here?

No summons, no warning no restriction on non-permit booths...it has been YEARS!!!

They are not doing their job! Come on, Malaysia can be better if everyone is doing their part. The nations deserve better!

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------okay, the post is getting emotion. Let's tune to another mood. LOL

I'm currently at Macdonald doing Moral assignments.

I don't really want to complain, but it seems like life is getting tougher these days.

I ordered one large fries, medium coke and an chocolate top ice cream, it cost me almost

10 ringgit!! it's 8ringgit ++ together with the tax.

It's not even a proper meal. Guess it's too late for me to realize everything has gone up prize.

Not to mention Old Town which is juz next to Macdonald at Rawang. I choose Macdonald instead of Old town coz i know how ridiculous old town food can cost you. End up i'm not that clever after all.*sigh*

Oh ya, forgot to mention why i'm here alone.

Here comes another thing to complain, i paid 88 ringgit for streamyx per month and the service is like ____(you may fill in the blank but i bet it wont be a nice word!LOL)

Out of 7 days, two days must be internet access not available.

You hv no idea how much i hate those words.

okay, that's all for the complaints. Too much would be skeptical.

Things might not be good, still we can be grateful and positive towards future right?^^

Happy holiday~~~~wee~~~~~

bye bye...